The end of an era

I have to get my thoughts in order here because I'm experiencing all kinds of mixed emotions. You know, like when parents first send their kids off to school. Yes, that's exactly how I feel because I have so much experience in life.

Today is the day Kasha goes back to her own home with her own parents whom, as I keep reminding myself, she still loves. I think. Not that she's shown any signs in the past six days but whatever. You know what, I'm going to accept that she remembers, loves and misses them because that would imply that she has a good memory, perception, and the ability to miss people like humans do and it's comforting to think that she might think about me and stare at the front entrance to her home, longing for me to come live with her. That thought is going to get me through the next few days.

But overall, it's quite bittersweet because I know she has to go as that's the sane thing to do, but I really don't want her to as I'm selfish. But here's the good thing - I've spent more time with her already than I ever expected to. I think her family was supposed to come get her this morning but looks like they'll come only in the evening. And every extra hour with Kasha = five times more happiness in my daily life.

And speaking of extra hours, Shane and I sat up all night yesterday, working on the production of the latest episode of the podcast. I went to bed at 5 a.m and Kasha sat right beside me throughout the process. That's a hell of a lot of extra hours of happy-time.

Moreover, we both woke up by 8 a.m again to take her out for a walk. God knows how much I like to whine if I have to miss even a minute of my precious sleep, but this time, I jumped out of my bed to plant a million kissies on the most precious forehead in our home as of now. I'm on my third cup of coffee for the day and I don't regret a thing. Shane's even going to return early from work so that we can take her on one final long walk before she has to go away. We're truly cherishing every single second with her.

This experience has taught us a million things, the most important of them being that Shane's a total sweetheart when it comes to sharing responsibilities and caring for an extra being. I think I might love having children with him some day if we decide to go down that path together. Also, you've only heard my baby talk so far. Wait till you hear him asking her "who's the prettiest girl in the world?". I truly don't mind being stripped of that status from his life as long as I can watch him being this cute with our own little puppy some day.

We're going to miss Kasha terribly and she doesn't even have any idea how much joy she's brought into our lives. The good thing is that she lives just 15 minutes away from our place so we can visit or borrow her from time to time. I'm going to try and convince her parents to let us have her every time they have to travel.

And nothing can take away the fact that Kasha is and will always be our very first puppy. She's always going to hold that special place in our hearts forever.

We'll always love you, sweet puppy!